somewhere you couldn't see

Trips

2012-01-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

Hello fellows. It's been such a long time since my last post. I was wondering should i update my blog and an answer of yes popped out of my mind as i was too boring right at the moment, lol. If you wanna ask why i took such a long time to update my blog, then i would like to give you a very short response, that i was not having great holidays after exams. I never had that feeling before. Frustration. I didnt really have this real feeling before until my birthday. All of those depression n frustration came out of nowhere and i was really upset about my performance. I couldnt blame anyone. It might be my fault, or maybe sace faults? We'll never know the answer. It just being fated. All i could do is just move on and look for the alternative pathway for myself. And indeed i was not satisfy with this last option i am having because it was never in my thoughts last time. Yet i got no choice and i'll give it a best shot this time. I hope i can do it and i need to keep telling myself 'yea i can do it, no doubts'.

I have been to macau, hk, aus these 2 months. I can say that i really love australia. The trip was amazing and the sceneries are just gorgeous. Tassie was really having good weather altho is at 19 degrees but with hot sun on top, we feel like we are on genting highland, haha. I'm getting tired so i guess i'll stop right here. Good night :)

习惯

2011-11-25T15:49:00.000+08:00

没有灵感
或许就是一种灵感

看得穿
或许未必就能得到想要的答案

有些事情还是不知道为妙
可是偶然的视线
也只能让傻笑不知所措地上演

原来就算知道真相会让自己心碎
还是会奋不顾身
任真相把自己弄得心力交瘁

或许痛得彻底
才会让自己放得彻底_忘得彻底_洒脱得非常彻底

我还是喜欢仰望天空，发呆。

Tired

2011-10-10T17:21:00.001+08:00

It's already October! Ahh, a lot of things will happen soon. First of all, I got my trials results. Emm, it was totally suck. Didn't expect to get such low marks. -.- Then, I had my IMU interview. Well, it was badly done too. Didn't really answer their ques well :/ i m sorry that i didnt prepare well :( I just hope they'll offer me a place, coz I really couldn't think of any other better and moderate cost uni for me to choose.

And now, I need to prepare my IELTS and also my finals. :O double attack. Yet laziness is crawling on my body.

Lastly, there's only 9days college life left. I m waiting for my graduation :)

Please, I just hope everything goes on well. *pray hard* 保佑保佑~

I need a place in a nice uni and I want to get a job with stable & nice income! 感恩8)
Hmm. I guess, get a good husband in future shall b my next wish. Lol.

Baskin Robbins

2011-09-16T16:53:00.002+08:00

Location: campus
Purpose: study
Time: 5pm
Problem: library closed and 24hrs room is full.
Solution: bought an ice-cream in baskin robbins n study here.

Sometimes, it's easier for ppl to write a report rather than to combine everything and explain together. Why is the world so freaking complicated with simple and complex form of illustration...?

Trials on Monday. Feels like dying now :S Confirm DEAD FISH from now till next next Monday.

Good luck, for all who are going for a war with exam papers including me! =)

Holiday

2011-09-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

荒废了一个礼拜的假期，其实我也早该预料到，不过这个假期里真的觉得很舒服，我完完全全享受在家的感觉，把所有时间都用在家人身上。其实这种感觉很棒，让我暂时放松，虽然察觉trials即将到来。不过我还是很乖啦，有读一点书，就算比计划中的读书量少很多倍，假期也一直在玩。
追电视剧，我好久好久都没有做的事情了，终于在这个假期里有让我稍微恢复了去年的状态，原来以往是多么地悠哉，真的好怀念以往的日子。@@
跟家人去血拼，其实还是我最爱的，因为妈妈什么都会买给我，哈哈哈，最爱她了~ :) 但还是觉得KL是如此地复杂却又奢华。

总觉得有很多事情变沉默了，也说不上为什么，或许原因也不说话了，哈哈。9月了，有很多东西好像都快结束了，而我好像也在期盼着什么。

以前他总是说我写部落格时很emo,其实...不emo怎么会想抒发情绪呢? 那天没回复不好意思，我会找适当的时机再找你的，老朋友。

今夜就这样一直催眠自己--我要读书我要读书我要读书......

Blue Sky.

2011-08-03T20:34:00.000+08:00

There is something that we couldn't explain, we couldn't see through, we couldn't understand. Yet, we can feel it.

Had been busy dealing with assessments for the past few weeks, AGAIN. hmm, kinda feeling lazy lately, for no reason. :O I had been see-ing people updating with their status like " no mood to study, but exams is coming soon. " The same feeling goes to me :) hahaha. I suppose... it's a trend, funny trend :P hehe... but anyway, have to be prepared soon. TRIALS is coming, got a lot of stuffs to catch up, i can't stand at the same position or falling backwards without doing anything. :)

To be frank, i have to admit that actually, i was kinda disappointed at u initially. That day u didn't tell me or explain to me. Just wanna say thanks to u for the bubble tea, BUT, what i want is just your explanation, ain't a cup of bubble tea. What comes out from your mouth is far more important than the bubble tea, seriously. Just felt kinda sad and that's why i didn't look for you after that. Perhaps i m petty, but, it's just out of my expectation that you didn't even explain to me. Alright, just leave it to your privacy. I have nothing to say about that, it's the past. Glad to see you next week.

LOVE is freaking cruel nowadays... because it's in the air... -_-" surrounding me... hahaha. one more couple again -_- freaking speechlesssssssssssssss. ok,thanks bye.

i love blue sky,
with peaceful atmosphere.

我

2011-07-21T23:30:00.001+08:00

今日
无言

我能够说什么
我能够做什么
我不能干什么
我不能讲什么

所以眼睁睁地
就是如此无言以对。

July. random feeling*

2011-07-18T19:16:00.000+08:00

It's July again. Kinda sad for somebody. We miss you very much, really.
You reminded me every single part of our stories. I couldn't forget anything, seriously.
Few days ago, my lecturer said she's going to assess us again, 'Text Production', next week.
That's one of the reason i dislike SAM, assessment keep stressing us @@
It's something like writing an essay that answering to the question according to some songs.
The first song is 'Luka' which i don really like it, BORING. haha~
2nd song sort of impressed me when she played it, 'If i die young'. I like her voice :) really nice.
This song reminded me something also. haha. hmm, just forget bout it.
And today, the third song - 'Because of you', which is quite popular :)

A lot of things happened since my last post. Something changed. Something disappeared.
You'll gain when u lost. Make sure your eyes are wide opened and be clear of your mind.
Don't make some mistakes that you'll think you were a fool after you have done it.

I admit i done a lot of dumb things before. hehe. wanna say sorry to somebody. I can still remember i hurt her long long time ago. With a post in my blog online. Luckily i deleted. Such a fool i was. Now, time is the evidence to prove that we are buddies. I am so sorry darling. I'll always b around you, forever. :)
All the best, tomorrow (19/7/11)! <3

Someone cuts / makes new hairstyle today. kinda cool. perhaps attractive. HAHA! tonight i got a feeling, lol.

She's flying off to Aus soon. Inevitably, i will miss her! :} don ask me why, she's just a special person to me since i met her. :)

Random feelings come to an end.
To be continued. TA DA~ :D

什么时候才能满足所有的欲望，去调和自己的悲伤。

2011-06-18T01:38:00.000+08:00

First of all, happy birthday to my friend, cute little gal having 18th bday :)

I gave her a 38 surprise in the very early morning which she just woke up, actually i called her to wake her up lah, haha. She was so blurred. And gave her surprise no.2 with the present hanged over the door knob. Her reaction was super FUNNY. hahaha.

Nothing much to mention what happened in school i suppose.

And then we went sunway after college again, it's just like a routine, sunway going to become our second home, lol.

They suggested to go Bubba Gump which i think food was quite ok lah, but expensive like siao. wasted my 20 bucks for a dessert.

Something after that, someone was having bad mood and she ended up to walk away without celebrating bday for my friend which is her best friend. So i actually don quite like that kinda feeling that she was unhappy. Without a reason i felt sad for her unhappiness also, aites. It's like a sad cycle today.

I can felt that the bday gal didnt really feel good as well, i know bday gal was worried bout her lah, and she was worried bout bday gal as well.

Well, so u can say that today was not really a happy ending story day. Photos always lie. Just like humans.

But she is quite ok now, we comfort her after going back home :)

And i was quite surprised that another gal friend n me was quite similar in a particular way. HAHA.

She acc me go to the starbucks n waited for me to catch my bus then only she go back home, so nice :)

We ordered the same drinks! Choc cream chip, my favourite, her favourite also, hahaha! & the best part is we do not drink coffee! YAY! finally found someone as my companion, muahaha ;)

On the way back home was quite moody, i dont know why, and then quarreled with my bro lah, siao one. lol.

Kept twittering. and someone retweeted one of my status. yay, i like that status too :)

[ 什么时候才能满足所有的欲望，去调和自己的悲伤。]

Holidays

2011-06-10T15:37:00.000+08:00

I need motivation!!! Had being quite lazy these few days because of HOLIDAYS mood. Gotta catch up soon, assignment deadline is next week! Oh my gosh, i wish i could have more holidays. T_T I LOVE YOU, you have to know that, my sweet holidays. I had a mock IELTS test on wednesday. Results account that i have to work harder to achieve my target! Wondering what's wrong with my listening, could get such a low marks in that section, hmmph. =3=

Without a reason that i was quite happy that he stop looking for me. YAY! :) There's a conclusion i found out, you're not my cup of tea, sorray, hehe~ If you really need a reason, i seriously can point out a pile of it. And i felt that, you're kind of liar? Nvm, non of my business now, just friends will be enough, or perhaps, common friends, thank you for NOT approaching me again, glad that i wasn't regret when i sent that message, muahaha~ Come on, my mum told me to FOCUS on studies, here comes the serious Twe, ahaha. Sometimes playful, no doubt for it. :P

It's been 3 months since the last moment of gathering imprinted in my mind. I really miss you guys, wish i can go back s'ban asap. Forgive me, buddies. ;( ... I am going to try my best to train my driving skills, seriously, if not i can't survive after my bros leave me. =="

Alright, here comes the camwhore. 'chee kiak'~ ;)

当你说你睡不着

2011-06-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

也许星空让我想得太多
也许该回到没我
梦里和相遇就毫不犹豫
大声的说我要说
当你的眼睛眯着笑
当你喝可乐当你吵
我想对你好
你从来不知道
想你想你也能成为嗜好

当你说今天的烦恼
当你说夜深你睡不着
我想对你说
却害怕都说错
好喜欢你知不知道

Twe's Record.

2011-05-31T16:14:00.000+08:00

Time to update! =)

A lot of stories happened around me since my last update.

I wanna thanks to many people for always staying by my side & giving me support as well as encouragement.

Thanks to someone who "made" me this photo, I had tried my best in exams, but PHYSICS, sure die... @@

And congrats to you that you broke my record =.="

Almost 6 hours conversation, gosh, damn freaking crazy lah us... but, it's a new & memorable record! :D

Love & miss you, please take good care of yourself when you go overseas :)

By the way, I just came back from a trip organized by the collaboration of taylor's SAM program with WWF Malaysia. Setiu, Terengganu, new experience for me, haha. If i m not wrong, there's 42 ppl including me in this trip. 2 out of 42 are biology teacher :) They are niceeeee~ of coz i prefer my mentor, she is gorgeous and in the trip, we found out actually she was quite humor as well =3= hahaha~ 4 of us from G11 mixed up well with G10 guys & gals. They are super friendly especially GimToong, the noisiest guy but cute, haha. The beach is quite ok lah, with my favourite sea n blue sky, love them ;) And the most beautiful thing that i had ever met is the night sky. SUPER AWESOME with all the cute little sparkling stars in the sky, the lonely night atmosphere was fulfilled by their appearance. :) Not to say the chalet that we stayed, cause it's not good, i suppose is worst =.= With all those cockroaches and evil mosquitoes. yucks.

I like this photo, but is not 4 of us from G11, is 3 pretties from G11 & 1 funny guy from G10 [G.T.]. haha.

My friend caught a small crab on the beach, she is a cute girl, GEMINI, sometimes quite mysterious, cant get to know her very well. but she's good n nice lah :)

And thanks to my App in hp, for taking this panaroma thingy, we woke up at 5am and went out the chalet at 6am just to see this failure sunrise =.= nvm, took a lot pics, satisfied with it, hahaha.

My footprint, cute right? yea i know, cause it's my footprint, HAHAHA.

quoted from chinese thingy "something something 必留下痕迹" [sorry, chinese getting worse day by day.=3=]

At least u got what i mean then that should be alright, hehe :D

We had an activity named MANGROVE REPLANTING. we seriously went into the mud just to plant this thing, this mangrove plant is named Ashley, haha, hope that it'll grow healthy and be safe cause i cant take care of you!! Love you and remember to miss your owner-me, my lil plant. :)

Finally, night party coming. muahaha. We had FREE ice cream that night, vanilla flavor i think.

And after that, we went singing party in the Multi-Purpose Hall of Penarik Inn. haha, awesome man, cause i heard everybody singing, enjoying, and my mentor as well, the gorgeous lady singing some familiar old song :) NICE ONE. hehe~

Before singing, the WWF guy called us to go to look at the new hatched sweet sea turtles.

Remember, NO TORCHLIGHT, NO FLASH, NO SHOUTING, cause sea turtles are timid, jk lah, haha ;)

LAST DAY, schedule changed a little bit, we went Kuala Terengganu, and saw something Crystal Mosque from far far away, that's the best i can snap a photo on it. and then THE END for my trip :)

Confused by lots of things recently. Babe, i dont know whether my reply too 敷衍 or what, perhaps dont know what to say, BUT i really miss you too, trust me, Love you always :) [非笔墨能形容 XD]
K : I everyday tell u everything, best buddy, no worries lah, HAHA <3

D : You'll b missed, take good care of yourself, special guy & pls keep in touch. :)

O : siao za bo, i suppose you'll b having exams soon, all the best, dude. ;)

Cloud: What should i say to you. It's been 4-5 years. Past tense is always the past. Everyone should look forward. I think me as well. You had been always the one that i wanted to care about. Now, take care of yourself well, then i'll appreciate. Be happy & good luck for everything, baga.

4.10pm

31-5-2011

Third choice.

2011-05-11T00:56:00.000+08:00

You asked again?

I'm so sorry to tell you the answer.
Please don't ask for the third choice. I can't.

Now you can choose either one from the 2 options i gave.

Actually sometimes I don't think you're suitable.

Because you don't really know me well.

I won't do or say anything about your choice.

It really depends on you.

I just hope that you won't regret no matter what you choose.

I don't wanna hurt you.

我不想伤害你。

sweet.

2011-05-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

Oh my god i m freaking crazy today.
feels like so sweet.

hahahahaha.

but one thing miserable happened on me today.

ok, nvm, let it be, don ever wanna talk bout it! ><

anyway, I got 42 out of 55 for my bio test, muahaha.

satisfy with it, but i know i have to keep up working hard for better grade =)

went sunway AGAIN today.

hahahahahaha.

with classmates ;D

had a great conversation with them :)

and then...

went FULLHOUSE.

that place is so sweet, like it.

BUT, so expensive =.="

duhhhhhh...

anyway, the main point i m writing this is because

i dont know why

i LOVE this photo so much.

* i know the hair is kinda messy, coz freaking hot at that moment *

- Ashley, 12.45am, 7/5/2011.

Complicated

2011-04-10T14:55:00.000+08:00

4个月了，我们好像变得不一样了

感觉变了，说话方式变了

在乎的程度，也变了。

其实，憋在心里很不舒服的

又没时间跟谁倾诉

很怀念以前

时常有空可以打电话闲聊

聊八卦聊是非聊心事聊帅哥美女

虽然很无聊，却突然变得好有意义，好有纪念价值.

真的好累好累好累

从来没有试过如此地疲惫

第一次借了超过5本书回家

第一次因为小考而半夜3点半起身读书

第一次自己搭巴士回家

第一次熬夜做功课

第一次让自己这么压力。

现在感觉好像OL一样

weekends的来临总是让人期待

放假对我来说更是多了一番意义

以前觉得放假好无聊

现在它变得

多么的有趣

多么的精彩

多么的重要

原来，长大真的很不简单。

* 这几个月里，发现有时候就算再怎么努力，有些事情还是无法让人释怀。

10-4-11

Beginning,smile =)

2011-01-07T01:57:00.001+08:00

其实有些话，总觉得要用华文，才有表达的能力
1月7号了，这是第一篇blog for 2011.
似乎还有感觉，自己还是中学生
似乎还觉得朋友还是朋友
但好像，该改变的都变了.
其实我有电话，可是来问候的朋友只有那几位亲爱的
其他的中学朋友呢？
呵呵，所谓的保持联络其实也不过如此
人，总是说的比做的好听
因为我也是如此 :)
今晚Z说: "还是不能习惯没有你的存在"
都是因为这句话,有了感触,才会写了这篇
虽然不知道是Z在说谁
不过还真的很想念2010的高二启的每位同学 :)
好想再抱抱各位。

[♥] 你知道我一直很爱你对吧? 想说的什么都说过了,能说的也分享过了,对你的一切全用文字在纸上表达给你了,或许你真的对我来说很特别吧,真的不想放弃我们的友谊,相信我真的在乎,不管怎么样,我会永远把你放心里,请记得要保持联络,就算是无聊的一封简讯一通电话,我也会很开心,因为你还记得~若哪天你质疑了,失去原有的信心了,就算你是内心收藏者,记得打给我,告诉我.你有着我有时没有办法维持的理智,有着比我不火爆却更有耐心的沉默,以后如果可以,在适当的时候请继续引导我,虽然有时候你后知后觉了点,哈哈.最近这几天其实都有一直在想你,想你今天什么时候在学校吃午饭了,在学校几点下课,几点放学,几点补习.今年要努力读书哦,加油,没有人半夜打给你问你考试的东西,想到我会骂你就要坚持别睡着哦,希望你永远记得我给过你的忠告还有一切.你的礼物每晚都在我身边陪我睡觉:)谢谢你,love you always. :D

[★] 最爱星星的你,一直是我倾诉的对象,真的很感谢你这一路来的陪伴,多少年了,感觉不变,特别的关系呀我们!! XD 以前,我们每天聊的都是同一个人,我很傻吧? 为了一个不值得的人,牺牲了这么多,难过了这么久,心空了那么多年,现在想起真的后悔很多,发现失去很多,伤害很多,到头来,他对我来说也只是个陌生人,用他的心换取我的快乐,我做了个多么愚蠢的交易.说到他就头痛想杀人,还是别说他.唉,去你家那么多次,还是没有睡到你房间,真的是=.=虽然未来我们不同学校,不同职业,但我总是有微妙的信心,可以和你做很久很久的好朋友,你身边太多危险人物,我还是不要多说比较好[但你每次死都要我写长长才甘愿,38=.=哈哈],自己照顾自己啦 XD 还有以后记得载我,虽然我不太相信你的驾车技术,也很不喜欢manual车,不过,有得坐顺风车就好 XD 总之,一切尽在不言中,你知道我想说的不止这些><你了的!爱你啦,亲爱的~

[*] wai~最坏蛋那个~虽然不知道你还有没有看我的blog,还是想写下你:D 跟你熟起来其实是初三的事情,我们总是八卦最棒的一对XD 真的很喜欢跟你八卦,虽然每次都被你zat,又讲不过你,真是很可怜啊我 =.=你还没有给我我的纪念册,真是不喜欢你 T.T 其实我很少跟你分享感情世界,你会不会介意? 对不起,也时常跟你吵架,我很不喜欢跟你吵架,可是我每次都不知所措,因为我很害怕你生气的样子,或许总有害怕失去你的感觉,你知道你我从来都不说这些,但,相信我真的有在乎你.我印象最深刻是你说过的一句话,你是真心的对待.我真的知道.我很努力想要对你好,可是你总是如此神秘,隐藏,令我懊恼,让我不知道也猜不透,你想要的到底是什么.以后有什么就坦白吧,我相信诚实是友谊坚固的柱子,已经毕业了,也没什么时间聚在一起,我会想你:) 还有其实考试时有很开心你有时会无聊半夜或者早上sms我,其实那些讯息我还留着,以后好像没有机会了,无论如何,原谅我的一切.我真心希望,我们永远都是好朋友,鸭子♥ :)

[猪] 时间真的改变一切吧,我们都没联络好久了,总觉得我们的距离好遥远,我很想靠近你,但你总会把我推得远远的,你说你把所有朋友都放平等,真的吗? 我只是觉得你还没找到感觉对的人吧? 或许我真的伤害了很多,对不起我没有任何一点印象,那是我的错,你每天都忙,很少回复讯息,也很少联络,我们会变得怎么样呢...未来的日子衷心祝福你:)有什么事还是欢迎你来找我,还要记得我跟她要去锁你的新娘门,吞掉锁匙,毕生难忘,记得到时要联络我们:D All the best :)

[Z] 也不知道为何要用Z这个称呼,反正你的名是如此,就顺便用吧:D 开学了有想念我对吧？可惜你都没有我的blog的,哈哈哈~ 有缘再让你看吧 :) 真的谢谢你的礼物,你找人筹钱一定很辛苦吧？谢谢你^^ 我很珍惜你的礼物,它还是戴着帅气的眼镜,睡在我床边:D 我很爱它,或许更爱你,看你的表现咯,哈哈,没啦,真的谢谢你 :) ♥ 离开了才发现有多么的想念,你总是那位提起我的思念的那位,当然想念的人也包括你咯 :) 你很棒,虽然有时的确白痴了一点== 请检讨！哈哈~ 你还想要我对你说什么呢？感谢你出现在我的生命里,增添了笑话的色彩 :D 加油,笨熊猫~

有点累了...其他人就以后再继续吧><我很感谢在我生命里出现的每一位,或许继续好好活下去,才是最好的礼物,因为,这几年发生了这么多事,就觉得该珍惜生命吧。
[★]，smile always please :)

2.00am

7.1.2011

Insomnia

2010-12-24T01:39:00.002+08:00

What a peaceful night

or should i call it a lonely night?

It's been someday since I left the familiar place in my secondary school life

Life is unpredictable

just like human

I wouldn't wanna leave if I had a chance

It's all fixed

that everything changed are facts.

Looking backwards isn't the best way for all human beings, I know.

Yet memories would be so wonderful . perfect . beautiful

for all of us.

I just came back from my journey to other countries

Did I change?

I didn't either notice or know that.

I just know, I fell in love with my home.

perhaps homesickness?

Parents are so lovely

I wish i could stay with them forever.

Although that day wasn't doing quite well in my journey to overseas
I still wanna say a happy birthday to me in this lovely December 2010.

And I'm going to leave a great place with great friends

and start to adapt a new surroundings

I was afraid

Yet, I have to go.

Explore something that's new

This is what you called 21st century.

You will be game over if you just standing at the same position.

Friends, I was suffering from blurred vision,

few moments ago,

Cause I miss you all so much

That I didn't found out that

Tears are all around.

Sometimes

Distance are kinda hurt.

Friendship shouldn't be like

bond-breaking.

"Oh,baby,these times are hard"

Ashley.

1.40am

24-12-10

善忘

2010-12-06T16:55:00.000+08:00

我相信

我親愛的寶貝

在未來的某一天

會放下過去

不會再用那麼抗拒的語調

傾談著那些往事

that's my faith

因為

人都是善忘的.

Ashley.

6.12.10

未来就靠这一刻

2010-11-12T22:35:00.006+08:00

匆促的生活

繁忙的行程

反复的习惯

少许的遗憾

负担的未来

美好的朋友

感伤的离别

啊~~~~~~

考试来了啊

感觉还没准备好

可总是在最后才发现大势不妙了

倒数11天!!!!

突然感冒了怎么冲刺啊 ?!

只好

阿弥陀佛 -.-

加油，朋友们&自己 ❤

因为

未来就靠这一刻 :)

Ashley.

12.11.10

It's not an invention, it's a simple discovery.

2010-11-05T02:58:00.004+08:00

小时候觉得书好难读
长大后才知道原来书难读，心更难读

小时候都让妈妈当“佣人”
长大后才发现其实她经常腰酸背痛却不吭一声

小时候总埋怨妈妈不让我喝冷水、椰水、汽水...
长大后才知道解除哮喘病的幸福

小时候看电视常改变梦想
想成为飞机师、医生、律师、警察、电脑专家...
长大后才知道如果想要那么多分身
就一定要在梦里发生。

有多少个小时候
的时候
就已经知道
长大后的过后。

Ashley.

3.00am

5.11.10

单纯的安全感

2010-10-10T15:23:00.004+08:00

有时候我们都需要

一些渺小的光芒

点亮心中微笑的恐惧

光线的存在

是一线温暖

有时也是一种单纯的安全感。

那夜晚

当我独自站在马路旁等待

陪我的只是一只沉默的电话

和一盏孤独的路灯

偶然发现

在侵蚀我心脏的

是恐惧

而不是深夜的月亮

突然

等待变成一种折磨

路人变成一种恶魔

我畏惧。

我还不想因为一个不负责任的人

20分钟内

失去身边一切

安全感，请你来到我身边好吗?

Ashley

10.10.10

3.33pm

听说

2010-10-02T12:19:00.004+08:00

《听说》/《Hear me》，一部很棒的电影。

手语遮盖了他们的缺陷，成为他们的语言。

主演：陈意涵、彭于晏、陈妍希

Listen, I want you to hear me.

Ashley.
2/10/10

你的一瞬间,我的接续点

2010-09-26T12:10:00.008+08:00

你吹得多用力

我就爱得多卖力

当你停止施力

我却还在盲目的旋转中

直到停止转动时

才发现

原来

自己也累了。

Ashley.

12.00pm
26-9-10

不平凡的自由

2010-09-18T22:14:00.004+08:00

虽然
你比较漂亮
你比较高尚
你比较高昂
但是
我也知道

我不平凡。

只是我也需要一些自由。

Ashley.

18-9-10

我们的世界

2010-09-18T21:58:00.004+08:00

你是谁?
Who are you?

来自不同的世界
它们沟通的桥梁
又是什么?

体型，样貌，等级
真的都是局限吗？

我爱你不就好了。

你懂吗?
其实只要你肯回过头
我永远都在这里。

好寂寞

2010-09-05T23:22:00.004+08:00

有时候真的很不知所措
因为不知道你在想什么
能不能就让我躲在角落
凭空想象着你给的承诺

忽视着你看不见的冷落

Ashley.

5-9-10

交头接耳的游戏

2010-08-01T15:10:00.002+08:00

如果记忆也能

像笔迹一样被擦掉

那能不能给我

一张空白的纸。

即使听到不能说的秘密

也能让它消失其中。

你说

2010-07-31T17:39:00.004+08:00

你说我乐观

你说我开朗

你说我爱笑

你说我疯颠

字字句句都以快乐来形容

其实不是我爱笑

只是我不想让你看到我心中的苦笑

因为

我不知该如何让伤感出现在我面对你时的脸容

其实，我很难过，你懂不懂。

Perhaps.

2010-07-24T17:39:00.005+08:00

Yesterday

昨天

I dreamed of a blue caterpillar

我梦见一只蓝色的毛毛虫

a hare with wild coat

一只身穿大衣的野兔

flowers that can talk

会说话的花

i think i had gone mad

我想我疯了

because i dreamed of you too

因为我也梦见了你.

或许那不是梦

而是我联想到你的白日梦

原来

我也会胡思乱想。

24-07-10

天国

2010-07-15T16:42:00.006+08:00

这段时间脑海不知道浮现了你的画面多少次

话题中的你不知道被提起了多少回

才突然发现

原来已经一年了

时间过多久又如何

泪流蒸发了又如何

再也没有办法跟你说话

只能模糊记得抱着娇小的你的感觉

只能模糊地看着清晰的照片

那是事实

而事实总是残酷的。

又有多少人会理解

其实最难过的

是沉默的你. ★

7.11.10

被侵蝕

2010-06-26T00:38:00.004+08:00

能不能剪斷神經綫上的感情綫

看着眼淚侵蝕五腑六臟

看着心臟貧血

看着自己失去靈魂

倒不如讓我失去感覺

這樣

就再也不必掙扎

比起心痛

心死來得更是直接 _ 爽快。

飆淚

2010-06-26T00:34:00.009+08:00

有沒有試過心碎的感覺?

就是眼淚在5秒内不受控地飆出來。

或許真的是我想太多

才讓自己痛不欲生

你說得對

在乎

把感覺複雜化

把我感情化

把你重要化。

心痛,但我不会放手

2010-04-18T00:39:00.009+08:00

人类真的很难猜透

有些人可以看到事实

有些人却注定摸不着真相

就很像瞎子

永远看不见黑暗的影子

就算有个让你视线变得更清楚的仪器

看透的影像/荧幕也未必是真实的

好奇心是很奇怪的

当你想知道却无法得到答案时

你的心，会失落

更严重的话，它会流泪

当你觉得你有把握可以安全地握着它

你会发现

它还是可以裂开的

其实它是脆弱的。

生日快乐 =)

2010-03-16T20:11:00.005+08:00

It's your colourful day again.
Congratulations~
Although it's over
yet u r still a special friend to me.
and i wana wish ya
= HappY 17th BirthdaY =
^^

316.
Ashley

- No Title -

2010-01-29T17:40:00.004+08:00

在乎一个人很容易

试着不在乎你在乎的人的所作所为，好困难

而每次我在乎的，总有ta更在乎的人。

伤透了，却哭不出
笑着说：是你想太多。

摩天轮

2009-12-28T00:05:00.008+08:00

童年的回忆，早已搁浅在对岸

时间跟着摩天轮在转动

人类跟着时间在改变

你在我心里的位置却不曾因为任何原因而转变

是你独特

还是我懵懂。

Hundred days =]

2009-12-05T00:38:00.004+08:00

My dear,i'm sorry.

because
i failed to protect you.
regretful
forgive me, please.

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

逛街逛了2个星期
累了><
可是还想再逛
呆在家实在太闷了,哈哈
冰淇淋,爱死你~

œœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœœ

JJ快出新专辑了~ 开心 =)
主打歌 -- 第几个100天
蛮喜欢的,哈哈~
期待你的作品...

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

明天要去旅行了
玩水玩水,万岁万岁~
最近有人要生日了
祝他们生日快乐哦.

White

12.52am
5/12/09

这个夜晚.

2009-11-25T00:59:00.003+08:00

宁静的夜晚
总会想起特别多的回忆

不过一切都过了
就...算了吧~

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

假期好像过得好慢
不过我喜欢~
因为家
很温暖><

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

明年就SPM了
还想玩多一年列
可惜明年要认真了 T.T
同学们
加油 =)

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

还有，感谢仅小我一天的弟弟陪我度过了这个夜晚呀~
祝你去台湾玩得愉快^^
=GOOD LUCK=

White
1:11am
25/11/09

原谅我

2009-11-15T16:23:00.004+08:00

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
我想
放手也是一种爱吧?

今天去探望了你
气色看起来好多了哦
希望你会继续健康成长

你会怪我们吗?
把你带回家的人是我
把你送出去的也是我
你会不会讨厌我啊?
真的很抱歉
以前就没有好好地对待你
现在你得到该有的照顾和爱了吗？
有了朋友你快乐吗？

这几年我都忽略了你
weekdays，我得去芙蓉上课
weekends，我又甚少去看你
妈妈身体不好没有能力照顾你
你一直呆在你的屋子里闷闷不乐
最近又一直生病
所以我们才会做这个决定
并不是因为我累了。

我很开心
因为你还记得我
记得我们的语言
今天要离开你的时候
你依然会不舍
是想要回家吗？
不行
因为我们给不了你健康快乐的生活
只能给你名贵的食品
还有封闭着你的家。
以后喂你,跟你玩,帮你洗澡的人
不再是我了
可是请你记得我
永远记得我们的回忆。

虽然我很喜欢你
可是我不想再看到你生病了
不想再看到你打针后脆弱的样子了
请你原谅我。

宝贝，我选择了放手
但是我一定会常去看你的
因为你是我最爱的宠物，Bobby。

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

White.
15.11.09

我永远记得.

2009-10-25T00:11:00.000+08:00

我永远不会忘记

因为你的行为

无奈。

我恨你

因为

你让她变得脆弱

让我对你失望。

我讨厌死了

大男人主义的你。

SHIT YOU.

纪录 + - * /

2009-09-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

7/9/09

这一天怎么那么倒霉呀~?

竟然被记了一个小过

就因为...

没使用天桥过马路

真是奇怪的学校

定下奇怪的校规

要捉学生也不用躲在车上那么卑鄙吧?

那么不光明磊落

真是气死我了...

哼!

庆幸的是

妈咪没有生气><

这样就好~

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

11/9/09

值得纪念的日子~

大哥这一天飞~~去英国了

真不舍得

又没得送机

伤心 =(

911噢

大哥不会有事的~

呵呵

还有一件事

珉走了2个月了

唉

还是好想念她呀~

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

13/9/09

学校开放日耶

我回家了

听说冷冷清清的

难道芙中哪里出问题了吗?

哈哈,不知道~

晚上回芙蓉的时候好恐怖

因为坐别人的车

那家人都很冷酷

不说话的

害我不敢睡觉

哈哈

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

16/9/09

没什么重大事件

只是听到新闻报道18号没上课

觉得开心又失望

开心因为可以早点回家

失望因为又要错过17号晚上的补习了

真是浪费我妈咪的钱...

之后晚上还通了一通电话

讲了大概1个小时

到晚上11点

搞得我累累的

就赶快关灯躺在床上呼呼大睡

睡觉真是一件快乐的事情~ =)

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●

17/9/09

今天不知道为什么特别关心他

难道我发高烧了吗?

不过算了吧

毕竟他不太开心

今天也很忙啦

早上忙"参考"功课

然后又要去公共电话打通电话

中午忙帮J做册子还有买面包

之后又抄作业

然后又突击检查

幸亏我没带电话

真是捏了一把冷汗~

下午回到家已经4点多了

虽然有点累,还是不舍得放弃我的电脑

就开始玩玩玩,现在还在玩

我疯啦~~~

下午跟妈咪谈到高二离校后要怎么回母校

可惜妈咪又不让我独自驾车去

坐别人的车又太麻烦

所以叫我别回去好了

这怎么可以咧?

我还舍不得很多人耶

之后不断地问她

她最终还是敷衍我说到时再说吧

唉，真是受不了~

没办法，谁叫她是我老妈子呢?

White~

18/9/09

12.27am

=纸鹤的祝福=

2009-07-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

嘀嗒嘀嗒...
你有听见钟声吗..?

大家都听得见，

唯有她听不见。

她只听见天国钟声的响起。

她很可爱,很讨人喜欢,傻里傻气

但主机外膜被侵入了。

午夜12点的来临总是那么地鬼祟,那么地宁静

今晚的感觉很不一样

因为是充满伤感的。

刚还下了一场雨

总觉得好孤冷

是你在哭泣吗?

还是老天爷在为你感到痛惜不已?

你知道吗?

很多人的天空都成了雨天

我也是如此。

只能看见平面的你

也无法与你交谈

那是种不舍

也是种遗憾

你为我带来了无数的快乐

我答应

会永远记得你。

追寻ø回忆

我们让纸鹤乘载着祝福送给你

请你之后一定要健康,幸福,快乐。
最后一次地告诉你,8月10号,生日快乐。

晴朗的天空

2009-07-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

哎呀

我哥又在打dota
不能上facebook跟他抢线

只好乖乖来写blog咯
虽然最近学校关闭1星期
学生被居家隔离了
不过这几天心情蛮不错的

或许是因为姐姐回大马了的关系吧
也可能有一点是因为你呱~
哈哈
28号成绩出炉了
虽然没有我想象中的理想
不过有进步就是给我最大的鼓励了! ><

为了我渴望的目标我一定会继续努力geh!

前几天新闻报道

政府考虑年终开始

可用Auto车考驾照

实在是太棒了

那我学Manual车的机率就可以减少了

因为感觉上好难学

尤其是上山的时候

怕怕的感觉会让我窒息呀 -.-"

隔离时期就快结束了

=祈祷八月还有1星期的假期吧=

“...”,希望你每天都有晴朗的天空吧,加油~

White
2/7/09
12.21am

无聊的一天呀~

2009-06-22T09:40:00.000+08:00

哎呀，又是无聊的一天
不过无聊的一天令我心情放松
不再那么紧绷
不过接下来可忙啦
因为camp就快到了
而我该做的事却还没做完
看来是得加把劲了~!
这次交换学生的到来
为我带来了不少欢笑
衷心地感谢你们><
=祝福你们=

White~
6.40pm
21/6/09

I'm pissed.

2009-05-10T00:08:00.000+08:00

Heart

pricked suddenly.

like being pricked by a sharp knife

without the slightest hesitancy to aim the mortal wound.

I hate to get this feeling.

When i saw those words

I cant imagine why i could feel so uncomfortable in the moment.

I think i care bout it.

the words wrote by that person.

T.P. is nt my fren.

T.P. is my fren's fren.

or u can say my fren's EX-LOVER.

why m i carin for T.P.'s word even though i dont know T.P.??

bcuz T.P. wrote some blogs bout my fren.

n mayb i care bout that fren.

T.F. dissapointed me for several times.

and juz keep sayin 'sry sry sry...'

What promise that kept by T.F. make me feel that those faith are juz fake.

I think the sentence that others told me is true.

In the middle of 'beLIEve', there's a lie...~ i shouldnt trusted T.F.

I had faith in T.F.

yet i got hurt n my mood was influenced at last.

T.F. nvr know what is 'cherish'.

n so i wont know how to cherish T.F. too.

.flaky day to me.

2009-05-03T02:22:00.000+08:00

Today, i had a feeling.

although i met my old fren.

yet i found that i m nt that hapi as i thought

n so i felt dat i m unhappy.

Literally.

Today might be a gd day to others.

or u can say a crazy day to them.

bcuz they had fun in a campfire.

i didnt attend it cuz...

juz simply don like or interested about it.

Yet i m nt unhappy bcuz of dis. hehe.

I read a passage long time ago.

n i rmb a sentence vividly.

to me, it's meaningful n nice.

'If i hav the ability, i would write a kind of words dat nobody understand.'

dat's wat i reli wana express myself nw.

unfortunately, my dreams wont come true~

n still i havnt write out y i m unhappy today.

forgt bout it, cuz i intended to keep it in my heart. ha.

It's really a flaky day to me. haiz.

God,
i need ur guide.

WhiTe.
3.00am
3-5-2009

Simple-diarY

2009-04-19T13:52:00.000+08:00

The day before yesterday,
my hp had run out of money.
bcuz i had talked wif one of my fren for 45 minutes.
n he's 016 whereas i m 017. -.-"
Yet nevermind
cuz he called me bac for an hour =D
he said he felt sorry to make my hp 'bankrap'.

obviously,
he's so kind~ haha
thank you,my fren^^

The day before yesterday,
i had attended my acc tuition class at dusk.
my frenz n i were newbie to dis subject.
cuz we're science students.
actually it's not difficult to understand wat teacher's talkin bout.
but it's juz complex to write those data into an acc.
somtimes even confuse wif those data. =.=

Yesterday,
was the first time i bought some masks for my lovely mom.
the price was quite affordable to me.
i thought she'll be scolding me again for my spending.

but luckily she didnt.
and i m glad dat she was happy~

Yesterday,
was the first time i used mask.
actually i was happy for it.
cuz it's fun~ haha

Today,
nth special.
juz need to prepare to go bac S'ban to study.
haiz,miss my home lah T.T

Guys...
be appreciate when u still can live in ur hometown.
cuz it's the place u belong to.

It's getin nearer n nearer

2009-02-28T16:33:00.000+08:00

She had gone to the airport a few days ago
still can remember the way u made me laugh
the experiences that u told me.

7 years between us
it's not a problem for our communication
cause we had a connection that will last forever since we borned
borned from a same place
speaking the same language
having the same genetic factor from the same persons
a month had been goin through in a twinkling of an eye
i can still remember the way u bothered me to wake me up
the way u bully me...

The last sight of u in my eyes dat day
was a fragile daughter passing through the customs
the hot tears welled up her eyes.

Although oUr diStance is very far
buT our RelAtionship wilL not get worse but gettIng better And better
thanks for the hug,sis.

-silent regards for you in the depth of my heart-

Departure

2009-01-25T12:36:00.000+08:00

It's been a month since skul reopens
n it's time to celebrate CNY
lantern along the street
crowded ppl in those stores
busy choosing & buying
lot of cars passed by
n oso the wind too
hot sunny day go through day by day
moon is getting bigger n nicer
distance between us is getting far
noe dat it's impossible to get bac
choosen giv up
new life for us
without each other.

my mood is getting better n better
cuz the plane is waitin for me~

祝福

2008-12-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

有那么一句短的词语叫作思念

而有那么一句短的句子叫作我想你。

你,睡了吗?

这么远的距离

我突然想念你了

没有你在身边

似乎缺少了一份喜悦

而我

却是让你伤脑筋的家伙

在这平安夜里

你是否对我有那么一丝丝的牵挂?

我不奢求什么

只希望你一切平安,快乐

而在这美丽的佳节里

祝福你圣诞节快乐。

时间, 你在哪里？

2008-12-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

是我太自私了吗?

是我真的还小孩子气吗?

还是我真的做错了?

有时候真的很不明白

也不想去了解你们的道理

可是我能有选择吗?

或许真的需要时间吧。

你们的你

2008-12-07T18:36:00.000+08:00

镜子充满着雾水
看不清自己
但却看得见回忆

一点一滴的雾水
手牵手地走在一起
谢谢你们
因为
你们的手
很温暖
你们的心
很温馨
你们的一切
很美丽

无意间有几滴雾水流了下来
最终流到了洗手盆里
它们会随着管子流入小河再进入大海吗?
生命中的你们有太多了
是否脑海里已没有可以容纳你的位置所以你才走到心底里
好好地埋藏着唯有你和我的回忆?
等到哪天再次地遇见了你
再把那回忆掏出来改写?

是时间过得太快了吗?
还是我没看好时间
所以让它走了?
但不论是什么
它还是走了不是吗?
你，即将离开了
但我却自己发脾气结果让你觉得是你害的
对不起

你，要走远了
我们的关系也越来越遥远了
对你的伤害
对不起

你，真得让我很惊讶
不过谢谢你的等待
之前对你的冷言冷语
对不起

你，让我不知该如何跟你相处
让我不知所措
但就因为我们到了现在还是朋友所以
谢谢你

不管我即将会留在你的脑海里
还是像雾水般流进了你的心底里
只希望在你的人生记忆簿里
曾经有我和你的回忆
而这些回忆
回想起来能让你扬起你的嘴角。